Apr 192012
 

For as long as I can remember I have wanted a tattoo. It was never: “oh yeah, maybe I’d like to get one eventually”. It was always a loud and clear: “I am going to get tattooed come hell or low supply of ink”. It was never a question of ‘if’, it was a question of ‘when’.

Slight problem, though. My parents hate tattoos. My brother hates tattoos. With two exceptions, everyone in my family hates tattoos. Add to that the fact that my boyfriend hates tattoos, and you got yourself a tattoo enthusiast in the company of a whole bunch of tattoo nazi’s. However, it never changed the way I felt about getting a tattoo. That was definitely a signal I really wanted it. When even the opinions of these super important people in my life didn’t change my determination, I knew I was sure.

About two months ago, I spontaneously asked the guys from Moose Tatttoo to draw it. After about another month I got a call. I dropped by to see the design, and once I had seen it there was no stopping it. It was perfect, and I could feel it: this was my tattoo. When trying to make the appointment, the tattoo artist flipped open his planner on April the 18th. Not only was this my birthday (!!!), it was also the one and only Wednesday I wouldn’t have to work for the upcoming three months. Coincidence? I think not. I made the appointment.

Telling my parents was very hard for me; I was scared shitless. I value their opinion and support so much, it was weird I was going to do something they were never going to agree with. I was super relieved afterwards though: they were definitely not happy with it, but they expressed their support and their faith in my decision. Boyfriend wasn’t pleased either, but he handled the faith of a girlfriend with a tattoo pretty well. Must be my great cooking.

So, April the 18th was not only the day of my 24th birthday, the publication of my first e-book but also of finally getting my tattoo.

I did the Go Big Or Go Home thing straight away. I’m glad I did, because I am not getting another tattoo after this one. Not now, not ever. Ouch. 

My tattoo artist told me it had to do a lot with the location (straight on the bones of my ribcage), but it hurt. A lot. Especially when he was directly on my ribs or nearing my spine, I had a really hard time. I felt like a complete wuss, and I had tears in my eyes and trouble breathing. I’m sorry, that’s just the way it is. After a while I found some sort of zone, closing my eyes and just breathing in and out, squeezing Lin‘s hand into meat grind, poor little darling. Afterwards I couldn’t stop shaking.

I was very relieved it was over. And it may have hurt like hell, but it was worth it:

(These pictures sure ain’t going to win any Photography Awards, but let’s just go with it for now)

The moment this design popped into my head I knew this was it. It was perfect for me. I based it on what a very inspirational woman said about (yoga) champions: They have a sense of wonder. They’re curious to what they could achieve next, what more they can do, how far they could go if they tried. It’s not about wanting to be the best, about beating others or anything like that; it’s about an endless curiosity about what more you could do, what else you could learn, in what other ways you could grow and what you could develop and accomplish.

I want to live my entire life like that. And this resulted in the line: ‘And she wondered what she could do next’ 

Obviously it’s still healing (feels like a big chafe), but I’m very pleased with how it turned out. It’s a long line but it’s very elegant and slim. I still have to get used to seeing it in the mirror. A tattoo has always been a part of myself, it just hadn’t manifested yet. Now this part of myself is visible too. I chose to make it visible. And when I look in the mirror, it fits. It’s made me into more of me.

I don’t know…it feels like the start of a new something.

  42 Responses to “24 And Tattooed: Another Milestone!”

  1. Secretly I’ve been waiting for this all day. Yes, I’m that pathetic ;)

    • Love it, and love the story behind it. My family and friends are also not in tattoo’s at all. But (I hope they don’t read this) I would really like one one day. I know when, but I still need to get there :)

    • Haha I can stalk blogs I like for stuff like that like all the time, so I get where you’re coming from!

  2. Don’t be ashamed Sandra, you weren’t the only one.

    (Luv it!)

  3. i really, really love that. beautiful.

  4. That is one powerful sentence, what a beautiful tattoo!

  5. Hele erg mooi!

  6. Beautiful!

  7. So pretty! And I still wanted to add (a little late): happy birthday!

    Over dat boek nog (extremely loud etc…): als je er echt niet in kunt komen, dan niet toch? ;-) Ik vond het geweldig, maar dat hoeft heus niet voor iedereen te gelden (en ook niet op elk tijdstip, soms past een boek de ene maand/het ene jaar beter bij je dan een ander). Mocht je trouwens someone to run with willen gaan lezen, aangezien het Engels al een vertaling is (uit het Hebreeuws) zou je misschien net zo goed de Nederlandse versie kunnen lezen, maar die heet de stem van Tamar. Dat wilde ik nog even zeggen :) Ha, zo, wat een spam.

    • Haha leuk dat je daar nog op terug komt, ik heb hem al een tijdje laten liggen, want Hunger Games, yay, maar ga toch nog een stukje proberen. Ik heb soms echt wel boeken waar ik in moet komen dus misschien is dat hier ook wel!

  8. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! Oh wow, ik wil ook heeel graag bij mijn ribben maar ik hoor telkens dat het pijnlijk is!

  9. Love it!!! Great place!!!
    And never say never. I had my first tattoo a few months ago and when I told the designer that, she looked at me and said “You know this will not be your last.” When they tattooed the design on me, I was like “Not a change in a hell I’m getting a second one.” Only to realise after that I wanted more.
    The place where I got my first wasn’t the best spot either (on my lower hip), but now I’m making plans to get one on my ankle.

    • I know everyone says this but I really doubt I’m doing it again. I also like the idea of just the one but more I think I’m just don’t want to feel that pain again. Little bit of a wuss, I’m afraid! ;)

  10. Wow, gorgeous!

  11. beautiful line, beautiful tattoo. and I love this: ,,A tattoo has always been a part of myself, it just hadn’t manifested yet. Now this part of myself is visible too. I chose to make it visible. And when I look in the mirror, it fits. It’s made me into more of me.”

  12. You go girl! Hij is prachtig en het verhaal ook!

  13. I’m not that big a fan of tattoos, but I really like this one! A line of text in a place not everyone can see, it’s beautiful :)

  14. It looks so perfect on you.

  15. As you know, I’m one of the tattoo nazi’s, but I must genuienly say: it looks good on you. (And again: I <3 the font).

    • Thanks, that has been the opinion of most of the tattoo nazis thus far, so that’s good to hear. =)

  16. Way to go! So proud of you! It looks beautiful!

    I can relate to your story so bad.

    I’ve always loved tattoo’s on others and the last two years the design of two tattoo’s on my wrists has been in my mind.
    However: mum HATES tattoos, dad used to but got one recently so is no longer allowed to hate on it, but the boyfriend absolutely despises them. As in: hates them with a fiery passion.
    And I want them on my wrists, which is a very, very visible location.
    I guess I’ll just see if I still want it in a year or so :)
    Ergo: Proud of you!!!

    • Thanks so much – and it’s fine to take as long as you need to think about big decisions like that, I’m very happy my parent never let me when I still lived at home so I had a lot of time to think it through!

  17. wauw mooi lichaam heb jij zeg, haha!
    zo bruinig
    heb je boek ook net uit, goed geschreven!

    • Wat lief, dankjewel! Bruin komt beetje door mijn genen en een beetje door het zonnetje! Fijn dat je het e-boek leuk vond, ik maak de volgende nog beter! <3

  18. i love it, love it, love it like BIG TIME!! En de quote slaat helemaal op het feit zoals je NU in het leven staat!

  19. Hele mooie letters, mooie tattoo. On to the next!

  20. Heel erg gaaf! Heb er ook één op mijn ribben laten zetten (ook een tekst maar dan korter). Deed inderdaad PIJN, zelf vond ik het dat ook wel een passend onderdeel van het ritueel. Tweede tattoo kan altijd nog, tijd genoeg. Geniet eerst van deze, je merkt vanzelf wel of/wanneer het goed voelt om een tweede te nemen. Vaseline (de ouderwetse) helpt heel goed om het snel mooi gezond te krijgen. Super dat je het gedaan hebt hij is echt heel mooi!

  21. superleuk! love it!

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